Hi all,
Dont know why I am writing this post. Just missing those preparation days.
Let me begin with a beautiful story I heard from Maskeen sahib (Bhai
Sahib Bhai Sant Singh Ji Maskeen). Once a poor fellow got to know that
there is someone called Guru Nanak who fulfills everybody wishes. He
started doing Bhagti day and night. One day, Guru Sahib came in front of
him. Guru ji asked, What did you want, my son? Do you want money?
He replied, "No, My Guru Ji"
Guru Ji " then you want good living conditions"
He replied : No, my lord"
Guru Ji " then, you want to assimilate in me and get rid of this life and death again and again or Moksha"
He replied "No, Guru Ji, I just want to remain like this because I get
assimilation, I will get everything but the enjoyment in the path to
meet you is immense and can not be compared. So, remain me like this
only.
वोह रस जो तेरी इबादत में है
वो शायद तुजे पाने में नहीं
वो आनंद जो तेरी चाहत में है
वो तुजमें समा जाने में नहीं
वो अश्रु जो छलके तुजको याद करते
या जो छलके सजदा फ़रियाद करते
कसम तेरी उसका मज़ा इस ज़माने में नहीं
I remember my preparation days
till date. My joining a coaching institute at Patiala for GS prelims
after B.Tech, Living in a small room in PG, classes at 5.30 am,
everything new, the history, the geography, the toughest economics,
reading hindu with dictionary, making notes, studying everything as if
this will come in mains, meeting those who have written mains with a lot
of praise for them, asking for notes, asking time for those who cleared
the exam, going at their places, sometimes helpful sometimes not,
sleeping exhausted, coming home in december, studying late, mom giving
tea at 2 am in night, then came the failure in Prelims, heart broken,
thinking of leaving the preparation and this IAS dream,cursing myself
for taking this path, went to Vodafone for a job after 1 year of B.tech,
took me as GET, working with juniors, getting humiliated for doing a
minor mistake, taking lessons from mistakes committed in prelims,
starting preparation with new zeal but in limited time after job, saving
every minute from job, cutting away from family, friends, getting up
early and sleeping late night, study-study-study, from zero to becoming a
walking encyclopedia, taking prelims test again and declaring to clear
it, Leaving job after prelims result, taking mains but shattered after
chemistry paper, leaving hope for becoming anything in life, taking a
lecturer job in LPU for a month, mains result coming and my passing,
preparation for interview and leaving job again, Failing the interview,
second attempt+ one year gone again, Heart broken, Going to Gurudwara,
Praying in front of Guru ji with tears in eyes, Taking a strateigic
decision, changing chemistry for which maximum time given since last two
years,to Punjabi literature, staying at home doing no job this time,
preparing for new subject, going to tuition in early morning for Pb
classes, studying MA level in 2 months, studying in June July with no
fan in hot summer and power cut in Punjab,taking prelims and clearing,
taking mains head on with full confidence of clearing, after exam
getting two offers of job as SDO in PSEB or as Scientist in ISRO,
joining ISRO thinking it may help in interview casting a good image,
going to Ahmedabad with single aim taking all the books for next
prelims, Getting every bit of knowledge of the city and visiting Bapu
Ashram as interview people may ask, studying everything of Gujrati
culture, call of interview coming and going to UPSC for interview,
working of Luck and Guru ji Blessings, questions on Bapu, ISRO and
Ahmedabad coming, Coming out of Board with a smile and at last the
result coming and getting selected. Calling parents, Going to Gurudwara
to say thanks to Waheguru ji, having small party with ISRO friends,
leaving ISRO to join training......
I remember those days...
I cherish those days....
Thank you Waheguru ji...
If I have thousands and thousands of tongues with which I speak thousand
times Tera Shukar Hai, even then I can not express my thanks to you O
Guru Nanak....
Waheguru ji, thanks for this success and bless me to help those poor and
downtrodden in whose lives, if I am able to bring even a single ray of
hope, i will think myself really worthy of this job....
